I know it's been about a month since my last post. Well, i'm in a mood to blog now eventhough i should be in bed now because i'm working tomorrow morning. Anyhoo! Err....I'm no more in SMART. Yea!I got the job as a temporary clerk in HSBC, Kuantan.
The salary is just fine but a diploma level n not degree. So far, i've learnt about save deposit locker reagarding about opening a new locker for customers, i've learnt about sending and collecting letter from the pst office, how to do frangki and put in ledger, admin work regarding bills and typing it into formats of Payment of advice and also invoice. Furthermore, i've learnt how to use a software named as HUB where every customers' account details are there. I can't elaborate on that because i would be violating the terms and regulations when i signed the letter offer to work in HSBC. O yea, i actually counted thousands and almost millions of money notes. Bags and bags of money..Well, holding it is very refreshing and interesting..hahah...
So,that's the story of me working there but now i'm thinking that it's not enough for me to cover all expenses ...if you know what i mean....I'm applying for teaching again now that i have my degree. O yea!My convocation day went really well. K.lina accompanied me and my parents as well were there. It was nice and fun to meet all of my classmates again. We took lots of pictures and i feel so fulfilled when i came back from uni that evening. Alas, i've received my degree. (Bachelor Education (Hons) TESL.
Well, i kinda like the job now eventhough the pay is not equivalent to degree level but i still like it. I don't know why i would prefer to work in a bank then in school. Perhaps, i would be ok if i'd applied to be a tutor in Uni or colleges. I'm not sure of my future...I have a big responsibilities and money is the main thing now. Plus, i want to pursue my masters but not at the nearest time perhaps.
It's hard to explain of what i'm feeling when i teach in schools. I guess i looked up to people who has the guts to be a teacher because as a teacher it's a very big responsibilities too. Why do i say so?
It's because all of the information that we teach must not be wrong. All information must be prepared beforehand in order that we do not teach the wrong input to students. The very particular thing that frightens me is if ever i would teach wrongly to my students. I just don't know. Am i thinking too much?Sigh!
I think i am. Low self-esteem and also low self-efficacy perhaps.Sigh! I should not be like this. I'm qualified but i let my mind control me. I am the one who should control my mind and not let it control me. YEA!!That's right! I think i can. I just have to trust myself. I will start applying for teaching jobs. I've just submit the SPP if i'm not mistaken. It's for the government teacher and lecturers vacancies. Thanks to Jahirah my uni friend who posted the web in Facebook.
Enough of worrying. Gotta start doing something for my future. I don't want to let my parents down. I'm doing this for them and also myself of course but most of it is for them. Thank You GOD.
In GOD i trust <3!
