phew!wat a sick week...

It's going to be a week that I am undergoing my practical in this school i've mentioned b4.Pftt!So tired!

I am teaching 2 classes in form 2 and it's hard because you're dealing with a real human being that wants you to grasp their attention or they will never give a shit to you in class.

The first few classes i had to scream alot to get the students to listen to me.I see almost every teacher in that school carries a 'rotan',a cane to scare the students from doing silly naughty stuff.Alot of them paly truant from one class to another.I don't see that the school has an effective solution to that.I am just a trainee in that school so i dare not speak about hte rules and regulations that has been there from GOD knows when.

It's hard to teach when discipline cases are in the way.I need to teach them and let them know that they have to learn something and progress in English.I am not there just to finish the syllabus but I am there because i want them to at least speak a sentence without any guidance.I really have to admit that it's hard.If they just follow what you teach then it's another story but they don't.Some kids are snobbish.They know they are being stupid but they refuse to speak in English because they know that they are weak in it.They just refuse.I know they can understand me but they just refuse to talk in English.Too shy...(in the good way to say it..pfftt!!!)

I don't mean this in a bad way but I get so restless just to think that i need to handle with their damn behaviour besides teaching English.Damn!There are so much to say and i am so sleepy now!arghh!!

I have to say that i feel demotivated if students don't listen to me while i teach.I guess i am too sensitive.I need to stop screaming while i teach.I need to get them be very attracted to the lesson so that they won't play truant from my class.

Oh GOD!I really need your help..your patience..your passion...You are the All Mighty...please!

I AM NOT WEAK!!I AM NOT!

I have term paper to think about still..Haih!Why does term paper have to be together with the practicum???They know we won't be able to finish on time but the uni still puts practicum with Term paper together in a semester...sick!!!Collect data my A**...!!(excuse the words of frustrations) .We are too bz with lesson plans,the classes,co-curriculum and entertaining the school and so much more...My faculty can still say that their reason for the twinning of both courses is because easy for us,trainee teacher to collect data?????I'm really confused!They're not enough time!

OK Reena,stop whinning!It's not gona do you any good!

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Ok,i didn't really say the intro to this practicum life yet huh?Ok...let me start with the house.I am staying in a shop house which is at the 3rd floor.I guess i written this in previous post before but it's ok...I had just repeated it!heheh!Then,I'm staying with my 3 other friends who are also my classmates in uni.So far so good no problems.2 indians,1 chinese and me myself.The house is alright.A mini apartment I should say because it's not that smal or big.Just nice for ppl like us.

Then,Abah let me bring my car but because the school that i go for prac has limited spaces for parkings,I car pools with Wendy,another teacher trainee who goes to the same school as i am.She is my classmates in uni too only that she doesn't stay with us.So my car seldom runs around.Today,I drove to Shah Alam alone.Not bad at all!I didn't lost my way.Syukur!Ok tht's another story.

So,everything in that school are fine excepts some minor ones which i'm not gonna mention it here.If you want to know it just ask me ok...that is if you know and can meet me...hahhaha..other wise msn me or ym me...if you still can't get tru me..then,no need of it cos i don't think i know u...hahhahaha....

To be frank,I am feeling my self-esteem is decreasing but i know this is temporary.I have the strong feeling that it's going to be fine.When i feel that sort of feeling,i always know that nothing bad it's going to happen but instead this is only a test for me in life.A test i need to go through so that i can bare problems in future.

Going back Kuantan is going to be the last topic this 2 months i guess.I don't think i can go back often or even never for this couple of months.Too busy but i hope i will hv time to go back ..Hopefully!Argh!so much stuff to do!

Reena!!!Again ur whinning!Don't whine!!!

ok2!!

I think i better stop here.If you have any questions about my practical.Please ask me in the chat box k..i'll reply you as soon as possible!I think i can only upate my blog once a week.huhu...

O yea!just now after a PTA meeting or PIBG meeting if it's in malay;I thought of going somewhere b4 coming to Shah Alam.I thought of going to Ajoe's hse but Ajoe was not home ,he went out with his friends and he couldn't guide me because his hp batt is running low. Emak said i don't know the way and i might get lost.Yea!i know she's worried if anything happens to me.I understand.So ,I've cancelled the plan.Too bad huh?

HIs mom called asking that i can come even if Ajoe is not around and telling me that my 1st bro was heading to her hse too with my sis in law and children.I was like...haaa?!!!hmm..xpe la..

I was on the route to Shah Alam already when Ajoe's mom called and told me that..I said,'Xpe la auntie,maybe next time'...Sigh!

Well,i gtg...hv to wake up early and go to my cousins hse with my uncle and auntie.Then ,buy some stuff for monday's class.Some teaching aids.huhu..

Still can't believe that i'm a teacher.I teach!?pftt!Go figure!I still can't believe that students greet me when they pass by me and i sat at the teachers' place in the canteen and sitting in the staff room.I feel so odd!!Really!Weird like!

I feel like it's crime now to go out and watch movie at night because i am a teacher~is that normal?This is so weird!hahahhaha...

Ok this is going to be the 3rd time i say i gtg...so now..bubye...much love and zzZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzz!!~~

follow up story..

In my previous post i said i wanted to bath Buck .I did.Buck's fur was so tangled up after i bathed him that i hv to send to the shop to cut almost all his fur.I've bathed him so I was charged just the for fur trimming ,short nails and ear cleaning.I mean for BUck of course!heheh! Now,Buck loves me so much for that.hehe...Seriously,i've been neglecting him due to my limited time in Ktn.Later,this few months i don't know if i can go back to Kuantan that often.The school might have co-curriculum on the saturdays and i was told that i must attend every single activity the school will held.Well,that's another different story,i'll update on the practical soon enough!

And yes!I went to Sg Lembing.I said i wouldn't but another changed of plans was made because Abg zul,K.lina's brother in law accompanied us and he knew the way.So we went to Sg Lembing.Let me break the good stuff about Sg Lembing to u first.I must say that it is a beautiful place and trust me i would have loved it so much if i have driven a 4 wheel drive into that forest!

THe water is crystal clear and no many ppl has come into that place.WHy u ask me?It's because the stones in the river were very slippery and when i say slippery i really mean it!If you slip and fell you might lose your life.We were very cautious when we were walking in that river but our feets hurt big time.There's alot of stones everywhere.Like i said,not many ppl went there so the stones there are not organised as the man made pool or something.

The only thing i regretted of going there was bringing my car!I don't blame anyone but myself.i should have asked first about the roads there.I'm so sorry~

I love my car so much tht it just wrecked me from inside seeing that roads that we went through.I kept sighing and sighing when i was driving.Either heavily or silently!I'm just grateful that my car got out from that place 'alive'.I promise to ask first in future!

Overall,it was a good experience.The river was fantastic eventho' we didn't actually get the chance of going to the waterfall. because I was afraid that my car would get stuck in the hills.Yikes!So,we decided just to play along the river which was not a bad spot at all.hehe!

Thanks k.lina for the pics.The rest of the pics will be in her album in FB.Care to look through if you're allowed too!=P...Some albums are set to 'friends only' so if you're not Lynna's friend then that's too bad!heheh...

I loved the scenery soo much! I love this stone i was lying on and I love the trees,the clear water and everything there except the f***ing hill roads!Damn it!

18th March 2010~a date to remember that i have to ask details first b4 bringing my car!

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Yesterday,I went to uni .The lect wanted to have the last briefing.It took only 1 hour of briefing and i came all the way from Kuantan which took me 3hours of journey to reach KL.Let me repeat~to KL 3 hours so add another 1 hour if i proceed to my uni which is in the rural area!

Anyway,i went with my parents so it's fine.I wasn't that tired because Abah was driving.Trust me I would drive if i had the chance and i don't want to see Abah tired but he just refused to let me.WE reached Ktn at around 8.30pm.

(delay for 1 day....)

(continue....)

It's dated as 21st March as i'm typing this.I had to delay this post because of Ajoe and brothers.We went places that i could only finish up this post now which is at 9.11am on the date mentioned~I hope u can cope with this,hope you get what i mean...OK?*proceed*

So after i've reached Ktn that night on the 19th March 2010,i went to c HIM and i was restless.I don't know why am i feeling tht way but i was...After i left from there,Ajoe said he and others will be in Tanjung Lumpur.I was in doubt of going there or not.From Semambu to Tanjung Lumpur is not that far actually but i was thinking that i hv to go home alone without any company if i went to Tnjung Lumpur.My house is the furthest.So,i told Ajoe that i couldn't make it because it's very far and it was around 10.30pm where i was.So,i went home.

While i was on the way home .I felt restless again.I hate it when i feel this kind of preassure in myself.I started to sigh alot.I felt so angry.Emo gile~hahahha..yea ,i know!
I was so angry of someone who delayed me from going to c HIM and at the same time i missed the invitation to 'lepak' wit my pals.sigh!

Well,it's ok.Everything happens for a reason.I was in the car and i felt something rolling down my cheeks.I was crying.I wiped it out of my face and i took a deep breathe.Maybe i was angry and speechless that i can only cry from it.It's ok.It's nothing really.err...!I think so..hahha..

Later ,Emak asked me to invite Ajoe and his brothers to our hse.I was like...'???'

THen ,i did and Ajoe sounded weirdly happy.*I don't know why*He came with Ewan and Nal.Chatted til around 1 am of some sort.My bro,Ronie was not around.He just came in late about 10 minutes after Ajoe ,Ewan and Nal went off.Hahah...

Then,yesterday morning which was 20th March 2010.I went on Fb and found Nal was online.He asked me to a 'break lunch'...hahhaha..It's lunch break ,Nal!He said,"Asal ada bunyi''...He meant that if it has sounds to it and it is understandable then it's good enough~hahhhah...

Fast forward>>>>We went to Sarsha restaurant.Meet Agar for so long never hang out with him.At last had the opportunity to hang out for awhile eventho' he was working.(because i don't know when i'll go back to Ktn again..).So yesterday was nice.

Later,Ajoe came with his brothers and Nal.Fast forward again.They needed to buy soil for Nal's mom and later we went to TC (Teluk Cempedak Beach) to 'lepak'.hahha...It was drizzling and we just walked at the walk way near the beach like it wasn't.hahah...It was abit cold too.

Carved some names on the Gazebo at the bridge walk way and Ariffin,Ajoe's bro fell =P and later we're off home.Nal's home that is.Lepak jab,taught me how to do 'Network sharing' and then Ajoe n Co. had to leave for KL and we departed at Semambu Road.They had to stop by their aunt's hse b4 they leave.

Well,sempat jugak lepak with everyone b4 i go into practical!I can feel that i won't really hv time to hang out for the coming 4 months besides the 2 weeks of holidays in June,which is the school holidays.hahah...I'm not even sure if i can make time for leisure at that period because i need to get my thesis done by that time.Time,time,time........hmm...

ROZLINA!!KENA BERSEMANGAT!!!You can do it!!

(This is the synopsis of my life in these pass 3 days...kakkakakak..If you manage to read until here then i would like to congratulate you..heheh...Thanks for reading my so-called life!)

This blog will be the place where i'll update my life as a person and a teacher trainee in the next 4 months for everyone.pEace!Bubye..hv to get ready to drive to KL.My parents will be in a another car n me in my car alone driving..yikes!In GOD i trust!Syukur!

bck in ktn!

i reached Kuantan yesterday at around 7pm.From slayang it was 4.49pm and we reached the location just after gambang at 6t.30pm.That was fast!Abah only took 2 hours to drive from Slayang to ktn..wonder how long would it be if i was the 1 driving.hehe...if i'm alone maybe it will the same timing as Abah..heehh....if i'm not ,i mean if i'm with my parents and i'm the 1 driving thn it s different story.

I plan to go to sg lmbing here in kuantan but seems that not many of my pals are going so we made some change of plans.Only 3 of us that has cnfrmed..me,k.lina n her sister k.eton...i know,not that many huh?well,xpe la..jnji leh g mndi mnda kat waterfall,wheeee~!

TOnight me and k.lina are going to watch Alice in wonderland 3D.Can't wait!Can't wait!can't wait!yay!

SOmething almost broke my heart today regarding D.No use of elaborating on him.It'll only make me feel even more worse.I think the best thing to do now is practice to be ignorant for now.Nothing can make it better if the truth is there.I can't change it?!No one but him.Xpe la...
I'll live~been there,done that!

Anyway,i went head piece hunting these few days.I found some that are nice to wear.I just hope i don't overdress on the head piece matter.hahaha....Later,teachers in that prac school i'm going are just wearing ordinary scarfs but me,wearing so extravaganza type of scarf.hahaha...gO Figure!I'll totally look like a jackass!Heeee Hawww!!!huhuhu...

I think i need to bath Buck.It's been ages since i've bath him.He is so smelly now..hahah..sorry buck,I've been outta town for so long an dtime is limited.I promise to bath u tmrw k love!

I think that's about it.

Current mood:wrecking heart+excited for Alice in Wonderland 3D (AiW 3D)+worried +abit emo~

OVerall,i'm ok....don't worry!=)

no more exams!for now...

Yesterday was the end of exams for my degree...phew!firstly,the initial paper was a wreck!!Majority of the tips that my lect gave did not came out in that so called exam paper.I didn't know what the heck that i wrote in that paper.Everything seems to be a logic answer from me.Sigh!I can't do anything but that....shish!Most of the questions i have nvr seen b4...and some questions i can only afford to rmbr the shape of the slides or notes where the answers came from...damn it!Then ,the 2nd paper was ok...o yea!the 1st paper was Edu admin n the 2nd was Creative writing skills which was ok cause i could do it!I just hope i'll pass the 1st paper at least a B+...please GOD!Syukur~

I'm currently in my 1 week break b4 my practical strts on 22nd March...hmmm...I hope i'll be fine soon in that school.Hmm...i'm at my aunt's hse in shah alam and i'll be going back ktn this monday when my parents come to fetch me.Come tmrw n go back to uni to get my stuff n head to my new rented hse in slayang baru and later back to ktn .I have so limited time later in ktn..hmmm....

I don't know how my schedule will be after i report myself to that school for practical soon on 22nd.I don't know whether i can frequently go back ktn or maybe not...

Yesterday too,after i'm done with finals thn straight away went to Slayang house to get the keys for the new rented hse.It was the 1st time i saw the house.It's not bad actually!Quite spacious for a shop lot house.I'm going to get my own room and alot of cleaning need to be done soon b4 we put our stuff in.There's 1 prob tho'...everytime we need to enter the house that is situated on the 3rd floor we hv to go tru a door that only unlocks with a key card.(it has to be touched to the wall or something on that wall)..we can only go up the stairs to our hse after touching the key card to the wall..so now the prob is that there's only 1 card that was provided.The landlord will work on the other cards ..at least just another card...please!If not,we;four of us are going to have lots of prob.Three of my future hsemantes are going for prac in another school and different from mine.We might come and go in different time of the day.well,tmrw i hv to get the keys duplicate for my friends.

Tmrw have to go and buy some head piece.huhu...pls..don't ask!=P..it's for practical..hv to wear it tht's all.

Called D yesterday.He asked me too.I wanted to tag along with him to Morib but since my parents are fetching me bck on monday thn i can't follow him.Too bad!=(..but it's ok,i think there's always a reason for something not to happen as what you want it to be.He's going there tmrw morning.hmmm...xpe la len kali,i heard morib is dirty..

Shahir said Bagan lalang has beach too and it's much more cleaner then morib...if there's an oppotunity .I'll try to plan something around June.

Da la..nnti smbng lg..pnt nk type...c ya!

11th March 2010!!!

It's my birthDAY!!

I am exactly 23 years old this year at 5.32pm..huhuhu...still few more hours left..heheh!This year my birthday is still in campus for 3 years in a row now!huhu..It's ok~i think it's rather a postponed celebration then a no2 celebration at all..

I guess i gtg now.It's a short update because i hv to go and meet my supervisor for term paper.He's alright so far.I just met hime yesterday n he did not reject my topic but he adviced to improve on my proposal.SYUkur!~~

Then after that at 11.30am i hv a practicum briefing and i hvnt studied for my final exam which is tmrw..hahahaa...I think i can do it.I don't know y but i hv this feeling that i can cope with it til tonight or midnite or more thn that...i mean the reading of the notes of course.So...that's it..i'll update later on k...c ya!bubye!!

O yea,so many peeps wanted to be the 1 to wish for my birthday.In my lonely situation now,that sort of action makes me feel touched!Thanks alot...I appreciate it alot!

Lazy to update!

Lately i'm very100 lazy to update.

Short 1 ok..
I went to Cameron and it was so2!

BUT Brinchang Mountain was GREAT!I felt like i'm in a TWilight movie or something.It's very cold up there too.(but it's not i'm in a fridge cold,of course!!)

Got some souvenires for ajoe n k.lina..just some handphone hangies.Nothing much.And now i'm at home since Thursday!I'm going back to campus tomorrow tho'.

Pergh!!One more week and i'm off for prac.

1 last week in uni??pergh!Memang cm xmsk akal..hahahha...

1 more thing i did besides lazing around at home is that i did some assgmnts and a poem ...(1 of the asses too) and i succeed!hehehe...BEHOLD!!my poem...copyrighted 2010@ =)

Love Search

Eyes to eyes meet,

Like fire roaring over the heat,

How shall I say it?

I am in need for a noble steed.

Heart to heart seek,

The truth lying beneath the peak,

Your care feels soft as silk to me,

Within, I wonder what you think of me.

Hide away, you feel like a Mimosa pudica,

Left unknown to anyone nears,

Feelings are scared to share,

Share never might be.

Secret truth oh secret truth,

Will ever you be gone?

Arise unfold to sooth,

For He is mine forever be.

p/s:it's gona be my bday soon.I hate it cos it's so fast and it's gonna finish fast too.sigh!