TEsL Night 2010 rOCKs!

I just got back from the main hall here in campus just around 11.54pm just now.I have to admit that this time the TESL night really is a satisfying one.Good job to the ones who made it happened.

I wore a long black dress and a cardigan.I learnt a smokey black make up tru youtube.Hey!You really can learn from there.No doubt bout that..kakkaka...

I'll upload a pic of me in full make up when i'm not lazy.=P

Pergh!Penatnya...I just got back from Ktn and i didn't rest since just now when i arrived at 12pm.Tomorrow i'm going to Cameron for a class trip.Whee~

See ya...i'm exhausted!BUbye!

SMK Ideal Heights,Batu Caves...

This is the school where my practicum will take place.I wonder how it will be...Hmm?

I was told that the school is near my relative's house in Selayang Baru.PErgh!I hope i won't loiter around so much.huhuhu....

Another thing was that my group did get separated.Only Wendy,one of my group member and me are going to this school.Another 2 are going to a different school but some how not far from us.I guess that's a good thing come to think about it.=P

Term paper and Practicum!

Definitions.

Term paper :is almost the same as a thesis but thesis consists of 100 pages or much more but term paper only consist of minimum 30 pages.

Practicum :it is a term used to indicate a future teacher is going for practical.
Basically,practicum is practical.

Yesterday,I've found out who is my supervisor,Encik Md Rosli (i only know that he is the adviser for group Tesl D besides that,no idea!) for my term paper and tomorrow is the briefing for practicum.That's when I'll know where is my practical location (which school to be specific) and will I retain with my group members or not?Sigh!There is a big question mark in my mind now.Hopefully,everything will be fine.

I MUST BELIEVE AND TRUST HIM.No matter what!Syukur~

Cleaning:Check!

I'm in campus now.It's 8.44pm.I arrived at around 6 just now.I got in and the house as usual was filthy!

I was surprised to find that my roomate is no longer here.Her bags and stuff are all emptied out.I wonder why.hmm?Weird~

Maybe she changed to another house or maybe she deffered this semester.I have no idea.hahah...The sick part of this is that i feel glad.=P...I'm actually glad that she's gone.I know,i shouldn't feel this way but having the whole room to myself is heaven!=)

I just saw my classmate's status in FB saying that she has another 3 weeks and she's going to be outta uni soon(for prac of course).When i read that,it struck me,''I only have another 3 weeks and then I off too!''

PERGH!!!!!!Scary~

Nothing much to update on.I came back ,found that i have no more roomate and I felt glad then i cleaned the whole house including the toilet that I'm using .Cleaned the bedroom as well plus the kitchen floor and then I'm here surfing the net ,going through FB and blogging ccause I'm bored.

Blogging can sorta break the boredom.huhu...

Along the way to KL from Ktn i slept the all the way.=P.THen,along the way from Kajang to Shah Alam ,my parents and I did some quality talking among 3 of us.
(people who don't know about what i'm talking about,pls don't simply judge..this is family stuff so read like your reading a story book where everything may seem as if it's a mystery..peace!)

And so,i thought,sometimes I wonder why i'm so lucky to meet HIM but there are millions and billions that did not.My Abah said,it's your part of life and you are born as it is.You cannot question fate.It's GOD will to let you to the way he wants you to be.You just have to live life and 'work' hard so that you won't get off the path that has been given to you.We are special and we have to honour it.Don't ever have doubts on it.Some even cried to be where you are but it's just not written in their book of life.And if ppl who have found their way but got lost while they were in it,maybe that's their fate and you can't question that.For now,you have to work hard so that you won't ever slipped away!You must understand that.Never forget to pray and do as what you have been told to do.In that way,you will NEVER be confused along the way.Always have faith and never stop believing!

Syukur!I'm so very blessed!

Last day of break...

TOday is the last for my CNY 2010 break.Tomorrow my parents are going to send me back to Uni but before that we're going to pay a visit to my only grandpa in Kajang,where my uncle's house is situated.Later,we'll rest for a few hours in Shah Alam at my Ibu's house.Lastly,send me back to uni.

All in all i have nothing interesting done this few days but doing work.For example,summarising a chapter from a textbook on Educational Administration which was very consfusing indeed.I took a day and a half to finish tht chapter.I mean taking out and pinned out the main things of course.Phew!That chapter really made me sweat emotionally and spiritually.hahah....

This morning i slept at 7.3oam from 2am,which was when i started doing the work on summarising.I think i better stop here.I have to wake up early for Kl tomorrow.Night2!BUbye!

short one!too sleepy to blog!

I am so freaking sleepy and i wonder why.Playing around and staying online for hours never seemed to fail my eyes from not closing tightly but tonight my eyelids are so close to each other that if you measure them ,i guess it's only half a centimetre or maybe lesser.

Well,that is not what i'm updating on now but i just wanted to say that we,K.lina n I didn't bowl the other day but instead we just stayed in.After 1pm (just about that time),i left her house for home and that evening i went to the clinic with my parents .My right ear was hurting so badly because of myself, so sillyly used the cotton butt to clean it.I used it when it was not wet or after bathing so my ear's inner skin was torn and it became reddish and painful.

I'm getting better now.Thank GOD but the pain is still there only that it has lessen from before.Today,i went out with K.lina again but her nieces accompanied us this time.We wanted to watch this movie called *something something* Percy but the seatings was too close to the screen to we decided to watch 'Lu pikir la sendiri' starred by Nabil.heheh!

K.lina was so eager to watch that percy movie.I can see from how she reacted=P but too close to the screen made me say NO2!...Sorry babe!

Nabil's movie was just fine but it was not in a flow.One minute that girl knows he's there and another minute ,she's with him at the road side and the list goes on but the jokes were alright though.Nabil is a natural in his acting.He didn't seem like a statue like most newcomers or new artists do..heheh!Credit for him there.=)

I guess i better call it a night..it's 2.09am and i'm gone!Bubye!ZZZzzZZZZzz~

p/s:The 1 thing i liked the most was 'Rahmat Tuhan' line in that movie from 'Lu pikir la sendiri de movie'....

14th February 2010..Valentine's day?

It's 3 hours passed valentine's day now.It's 3.12am as I'm typing this out.Currently watching tv with K.Lina while she turn channeling the television from the cooking channel,CSi and a P.Ramlee movie.haha...It's her habit to change channels from one to another.

You must have wondered.Why is she watching tv so late at night?

Cutting the story short and simple,I'm sleeping over at K.lina's house .She's alone as her sister is in KL.

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It was a boring day,so i text K.lina to go out and we did and we ended up watching 'Valentine's day' movie.It was OK.Later,we went to hang out with Azgar and Rafie ,just at Kopitiam Kemaman .

We laughed like the shop was ours.haha..Silly jokes just to cover the time but it was fun.

Tomorrow,if K.lina and i are able to wake up ;we'll be in Kuantan Plaza to bowl.That is,if we get up to tomorrow morning.Looking at the time now,3.24am,I think the chance of waking up is very slim.=)

O yea,i've been home since last thursday.I didn't do much of anything but lazed around though.I'm so freaking lazy when i'm home.Anyways,Abah has changed the tires to my car (thanks so much Abah!=D).I might bring my car for practical soon in March but it depends too.I have always wanted to drive in Kl but lately i'm having doubts.You're asking why?

HMMmm....I'm thinking about the fuel,the car condition soon ;if I'm at the location for my practical ,and travelling seems to be more dangerous in my own car then the public transportation.Sigh!Well,can't do much now but just wait and see.

I'm sleepy but i don't think I want to dose off yet.hehe..I think i gtg.I'll do more update soon enough.Tata!=)

P/s:Valentine's was just ordinary with me still single.Go figure!haha..Well,i'm just glad i'm happy with ppl around me.Syukur!Cheers to the ppl who were with me all through out the day!

I was thinking and i thought...

I did some thinking while i was in the bus from Ktn-KL.I was thinking.Maybe while pursuing my masters in December.(maybe).I guess i might go back MGS as a teacher and not as a student.MGS is a school where i graduated for SPM n SPTM.Where almost all teachers did not have faith in me...Where's the morality, huh?!Well,I almost flunk my STPM and all teachers didn't even give me any motivation of where i should go and what should i do.You tell me,wasn't that too cruel for a student like i was back then?I thought teachers are known as motivators no matter how the students' behaviours are?!I've always hated school in Ktn because of the teachers.

They are just not qualified to handle such students.In TESL,I learnt that as teachers we have to motivate students every single class not even one student should be left out.Now you think about it(but if u don't want too,it's ok..=P) are these teachers in my old school even fit to be teachers?What if a student unlike i was,failed?Where should this person go?A slip of results tells you that you have no future then what must this student do?Teachers should not let this responsibility go off their hands.If not,this shows so much that teachers are only in school to finish the syllabus and later their job are done.Is this the function of you as teachers in school?I thought there's oaths for teachers to nuture,teach,motivate and so much more for students??What i can see is that teachers just do the jobs which they are good at which is finishing the freaking syllabus.

I know that not every teacher in that school that looked down on me.There are a few that was very motivating and i appreciate their good deeds to me and my friends.I would like to name some of them that i really think should be awarded to be the best teacher.They are Puan Fauziah Ghazali,Puan Alicia Tan,Miss Queck,Puan Azlina,Puan Juwita and more...These are the only teachers that i really can feel that they want their students to achieve.They did not underestimate students like me.Students who are slow and lazy but have the potential to succeed!


Other teachers in that school are failures,they failed to fulfill their responsibilties as motivators, as the role models and what more to be a decent teacher. (a disgrace!=P).Thinking back ;the moment i retrieved my STPM results;it is still fresh in my mind that none of the teachers came to motivate me.No one was there to entertain me.Why?It was because i was one of the lowest result holders and to tell you the truth,i was lost for a second there.I was sad,devastated and i thought my future was going down the drain.There was no use to regret and i trust God that there was a whole loads of reasons why that such situation happened.

Today ,i believe this person whose name i can't recall but wrote an article on students in school and in tertiary level .I've read it when i was in the year of Upper six in MGS,Ktn.That person said that some ppl or student are slow to blossom and score in school but they would do good in College or University level!I confirm that statement .I'm very affirmative on it because i underwent the same process as what that writer published in the newspaper.

The prove to that is that I scored a CGPA of 2.00 in STPM.I was so ashamed back then but I am not now.Want to know why?It's because that I am proud and grateful to GOD that I am 1 of the top scorers in tertiary level in my course of cause and i beat most of my friends who even scored so freaking high for their STPM.

I don't want to be a bragger but I just want to prove to all those teenagers out there that failing an examination is not your last station on earth.Trust me,you are not going to fail forever.Just like me for instance,I never gave up and I intend not to give up ,no matter what trouble or problems come tumbling down on me.

Believe in yourself.No matter what ppl say;telling that you can't do this or that,you know yourself better than that person who underestimates you.If you fall once,you will NEVER be there forever.You have to strive for the better of your future,your parents,your family,your future family and so much more.These things will always keep your head up high.Things you want to achieve.DOn't just dream of it,make it happen!(^__^)

As for me ,i want to get a job in that school as a substitute teacher before i pursue for my masters soon and hopefully that those teachers that once looked down on me are going to be there.haha...Actually,I want to thank them for underestimating me because if they didn't i won't be where i am today.But of course ,it's not because of them that i've achieved this.They are just the instruments for me to challenge myself when ever i get lazy or uninspired.Truthfully,I've achieved this because GOD was always there for me to plead and ask.HE never left me alone not even once and i'm so grateful for that.Syukur!

Well,i'll try my luck soon in July for this plan.Let just see how it goes k?heheh....

To sum all of the above,i'm not bragging over myself and I'm not saying all teachers in MGS are spoilt milk but some of them smell so bad that there just made the students rot as well.=P

What good symbols of sarcasm is that,huh?hahahha...See ya,bubye!

the need to rant again...

I reached uni at about 4pm and to my 'amusement' that i found my room was filthy.Literally!Basically the whole house was dusty!I couldn't help but to sweep and mop the whole place.I don't know how these ppl can leave in such a mess.Pfft!

Ppl who know me will categorise me as not the clean type but i have limits too!I can't stand dirty floors and toilets.Euuuww!!!I'm lazy at lots of stuff but I seem to feel the responsibilty of doing something when i'm not in my comfort zone for instance when i'm home and near my Emak!heheh!

Well, i was so freaking disgusted so i cleaned the floors in 15 minutes.hehe!

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Just now at around 7pm-8pm i overslept.I was so tired because i was on vid call on skype with Shahir up til 2am something .So i slept at 5pm and i thought i would wake up at 7pm.In Islam,it's sort of a forbidden thing to do ,that is sleeping at 7-8pm.I ,on the hand overslept and if you unfortunately sleep at that moment it is believed that the demons of Satan will disturb you.I think I was.I dreamt that my third brother caused a fight with me.He simply fired up a quarell with me just because i was using the internet on my own or something.I can't seem to recall what happened in that dream.Then,i cried because he was screaming in my face.I scolded him with such anger that i cried so hard.Luckily,i woke up when i heard the sounds from my roomate's laptop.haha..Syukur!Believe me that dream was horrible.I remember that there was alot of shouting and screaming onto each other's faces,my brother and me...Sigh!Surely i won't be sleeping at that time anymore.Phew!

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I have class tomorrow.Soon on thursday will be back to Kuantan!hehe...

Funny names!

Shahir introduced me to this website where all in it are most likely to be weird,funny,absurd and sometimes out of this world kind o..

So here it is!

I guess Emak was right..everytime!

I took this from somebody's blog.I think what Emak has been telling for years now...was and is right!I think this is why i have never been in a relationship before.Hey!Don't look it on the negative point of view.I mean this in a positive way.I'm blessed and i'm purely clean.=).I,thank you GOD!

I dedicate this to all sedara wanita yang masih m'cari teman.

Sesungguhnya kamu tidak KESEORANGAN!-edited quote by 'ANonymous'.
(if you know what i mean.....)

Perempuan yang suci

adalah perempuan yang dijaga oleh Allah

Tidak sedikitpun Allah membenarkan mana-mana lelaki ajnabi yang fasik menyentuhnya dirinya

walaupun hatinya..

Kerana Allah amat mencintainya

tetapi andai kita bergelumang dengan cinta lelaki yang palsu imannya.

Dimana Allah untuk menjaga kita?

Allah seakan melepaskan kita kepada seorang manusia

yang lebih banyak mengecewakan kita

Jika Allah datangkan kesedaran dalam diri supaya tinggalkan cinta lelaki munafik

Itu bermakna Allah mahu mengambil kita kembaliuntuk dijaga-Nya..dilindungi

Mengapa masih ragu-ragu?

Kekuatan usah dinanti tapi harus dicari

Diharap ukhti hargailah kesempatan yang Allah beri ini

" Sebesar-besar dosa ialah dosa yang dilakukan ketika kita rasa berdosa melakukannya"- Imam Ghazali.

Ukhtiku,aku bangga melihat engkau derita dalam perjuagan dari melihatmu gembira dalam kelalaian..

Ukhtiku, aku bangga mendengar tangisanmu kerana pengorbanan..dari melihat tawamu dalam pengkhianatan.

Aku bangga jika dikau mati dimedan kebenaran..dari hidup dalam kesesatan..

kerana jangan lupa ukhtiku bahawa muliamu bukan pada pangkat, harta dan rupa.

Tapi kerana Islam, Iman dan Ihsan.

Faris!

"Aku cinta pada moo!Moo?moo?xde pon moo...'',said Faris.(2years 2months old)

*Moo:a cow~

hahahahahhahahhahahahhaha.....

(^__^)Y

Masters?!

If you were me,what would you do?IF money is the main problem between you and the masters,which option would you choose?

#1:After degree get a loan or apply for a scholarship and take up masters.
#2:Get a job and apply for masters later and hope that your employer will pay fully for your masters.
#3:Get a masters first ,no matter what and work later.
#4:Others.State your view_______________

faris!

Have u ever felt this feeling,when a child's tiny hand holds ur baby finger or the lil' finger?He held your finger and wanted you to follow him.He wants to show you something which he can't say in perfect words yet.Faris,my nephew did that just awhile ago and he just gave me that undescribable feeling.The feeling where you think that he needs you to care for him and give him the warmth of love endlessly.Aww!

no class this week!

Actually,it's not that i have no class but i was sick!I dislike to be sick but what happened was that i didn't have the guts to go home alone to my uni because to the fact that i'm sick.

Puzzled?haha...

It started last sunday.I woke up that day and i felt like my throat had been slit out of my neck.Horrible?haha..yea, it is.I sound like i'm exaggerating but i'm not.I woke up that morning and lucky for me that i'm at my aunt's home.I thought i could go bck to campus the next day but i was wrong.After a sore throat ,flu flying by which made me more fatigue.I caught a cold and i coughed so hard my soring throat got worst.Later,guess what..my body temperature rose abit making me feverish which made me end up not going back to campus on Monday!Then ,later i thought i would go back on Tuesday but i woke up that Tuesday morning without a voice and i felt weak.I always questioned myself,' Am i really sick or am i just being weak?'

'Shish'...this dizzy-ness is sorta killing me.

My parents came all the way from Kuantan to Shah Alam just to fetch me home.I'm so blessed!I'm so sorry and i feel so guilty to let my parents do that.At the end,this whole week which equalled to 4 classes,i didn't attend due to because i'm sick.This semester is sort of a short semester before i go for my practical.If i missed 2 classes,it means that i've missed 1 week of class and if i missed 4 classes.sigh!Then,you do the math!

I promise myself to work twice as hard next week when i get back to campus!Pronto!