Life is getting hard. The so called problems did not happened to me but people all around me. So to speak, my family. I understand that there is no need for me to worry or be sad about for GOD knows the best. I trust that I have written this very phrase in my previous posts before but as a human being, I am weak. Emotionally weak.
I pray to GOD to give me the strength that I need to overcome this drama of emotions in me. I must not trip and fall. This lesson is to be learnt and I have to be able to stand tall and not be afraid of my own fate. Perhaps, I did something wrong that I did not notice. Perhaps, I have sinned. Perhaps, I have said bad things of someone that is inappropriate and it's bad? Perhaps.
I may forget sometimes that I did something wrong but what ever it is, I know I'll face karma and I would always apologise even if I am wrong or not just to keep the peace. Only GOD knows what lays ahead of my life. The two things that I would always wish for are the happiness of my parents. When they're happy, I'm happy and the other is my own happiness.
Sometimes, maybe I had achieved some things in life that have enlightened their burden, only that I didn't for seen it. Perhaps I had done a sum of it. Hopefully, everything will turned out okay soon. I have to be positive even if it doesn't lead to it, I must create the positive thoughts within me. I must be brave and I must not lose myself to the hands of the demons and sins. I've always wanted a family photo. I guess my wish will not be at all in the future. I gotta start facing the reality of it.
Summing it all up, I believe in GOD and I trust that my happiness awaits my arrival soon in future. This detours are only keeping me company for now. Thank you GOD. Syukur, Ya Rasullullah! *peace* <3 nbsp="nbsp">
"Our fate is within us, we will only have to be brave to see it"- Brave
