Thursday, 21 April 2011

It's not the end ,it's not the beginning!

Title is a few words taken from the latest Linkin' Park song :' Waiting for the End' if I'm mistaken.

There so much going on in my mind that i don't know which one to talk about first but the most critical thing that i'm thinking now is how am i to jump a few steps to get to where i wana go in this 2 years. You probably would ask where am I going and why 2 years, right?

Well, i put a target to be at a higher level of the 'ladder' in 2 years. I don't know whether i'll still be in the current bank or not but so far that's my target for now. I have alot options that is why sometimes it's hard to make decisions. Lately, there is nothing much to think about accept the ways i need to do to get up the 'ladder' but in the future i need to think whether i am going to stay in that bank for the whole working life of mine or jump to another better paying company. Well, you can say that i am thinking to much on this. Someone i know told me something when i needed someone to comfort me.

She said,' Clear up your mind dear ......take it one at a time ..... One day u be smilling and glad u overcome it with a peace of mind ........ Just remember all of us Love u dearly.....♥♥♥♥♥.......'

Thanks Kak!I really appreciate this. Thank you GOD for what i have now and in the coming future. I'm sorry if i sound so ungrateful with my life.

In GOD,I trust! <3 (^_^)

Tuesday, 19 April 2011

i'll try to make this one short. . heheh!*wink*

It's going to be 6 months that i'm in the well known foreign bank. How time flies,huh?hahah. . . I have a 90 day journal sort of homework that needs to be completed by 1st of July and i'm lazy to do so. I thought i don't need to read so much after graduating but I was wrong. The more you're climbing up the 'ladder' to a higher post the more info you need and must know. Boo!~

I'm not climbing the 'ladder' literally just yet but in future who knows,right?haha. . .Oh yea!I'm an understudy teller going on to the 4th day now. . .for those who don't know what's that,it's more of being a cashier but in the bank and you deal with terribly big notes most of the time of the day when you're at the counter. So far i'm fine but i'm still slow at handling the notes. With GOD's will i'll progress in it!

The environment at the bank has it's ups and downs. I bet everywhere you work has the same situation as mine. There will always be a person or two who are very bossy eventhough your level is just further up 1 step but they act as if they own that department. Then , you'll have that person that act as if they understand your problems but behind you they speak of your bad deeds as if you've killed someone. Next,you'll have the jerks and peeps that will always be there to ruin you. Other then that you'll have peeps that will stab you from the back like nobody's business. Well, these are a few of the mishaps people that i've known or met during this 6 months.

The best part or the ups of being in the bank are the benefits and the people you meet either they are customers or your officemates that sometimes would surprise you that they actually care for you and has been watching you since the first day you are there. These people certainly had surprised me unintentionally.

I don't really know who to trust but i try my best not to trust anyone there. I just try to talk on work most of the time. I do talk behind people's back but i hate. There is a saying that goes,' When you can't beat them, join them!' So basically i'm just blending in. I don't like to talk about people but i do talk about people who gets in my way or tries to ruin me or finding my fault that i did not even do. Sometimes i just don't know what to do but talk about them behind their backs but so far i have no problems with people who don't get in my way.

There was one day when the assistant sales manager called me to talk and he gave me the 5 minutes talk that i didn't expect. I thought he just wanted to give a talk like a welcome talk that a manager would give like what the assistant services manager had given me. So when he told me about what opportunities are awaiting me, i was overwhelmed and i was so boost up. Seriously, it answered my question that morning when i asked GOD what is next for me after my confirmation there itself. I just have to strive ALOT to get there. I put a target of 2 years to be where i wanted to be. I just have to know the strategy and learn ALOT within this 2 years to come. I don't know how yet but i'm looking my way up the 'ladder'. I want to prove to 'them' who treat me like rubbish, who asked me to do that and this without the sense of respect to colleagues like me; that i will be on top of them and let them know that what they are doing are wrong. Hopefully, i won't be like them in future.

In GOD, I trust!

Almost 6 months and I'm already permanent baby!