I am teaching 2 classes in form 2 and it's hard because you're dealing with a real human being that wants you to grasp their attention or they will never give a shit to you in class.
The first few classes i had to scream alot to get the students to listen to me.I see almost every teacher in that school carries a 'rotan',a cane to scare the students from doing silly naughty stuff.Alot of them paly truant from one class to another.I don't see that the school has an effective solution to that.I am just a trainee in that school so i dare not speak about hte rules and regulations that has been there from GOD knows when.
It's hard to teach when discipline cases are in the way.I need to teach them and let them know that they have to learn something and progress in English.I am not there just to finish the syllabus but I am there because i want them to at least speak a sentence without any guidance.I really have to admit that it's hard.If they just follow what you teach then it's another story but they don't.Some kids are snobbish.They know they are being stupid but they refuse to speak in English because they know that they are weak in it.They just refuse.I know they can understand me but they just refuse to talk in English.Too shy...(in the good way to say it..pfftt!!!)
I don't mean this in a bad way but I get so restless just to think that i need to handle with their damn behaviour besides teaching English.Damn!There are so much to say and i am so sleepy now!arghh!!
I have to say that i feel demotivated if students don't listen to me while i teach.I guess i am too sensitive.I need to stop screaming while i teach.I need to get them be very attracted to the lesson so that they won't play truant from my class.
Oh GOD!I really need your help..your patience..your passion...You are the All Mighty...please!
I AM NOT WEAK!!I AM NOT!
I have term paper to think about still..Haih!Why does term paper have to be together with the practicum???They know we won't be able to finish on time but the uni still puts practicum with Term paper together in a semester...sick!!!Collect data my A**...!!(excuse the words of frustrations) .We are too bz with lesson plans,the classes,co-curriculum and entertaining the school and so much more...My faculty can still say that their reason for the twinning of both courses is because easy for us,trainee teacher to collect data?????I'm really confused!They're not enough time!
OK Reena,stop whinning!It's not gona do you any good!
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Ok,i didn't really say the intro to this practicum life yet huh?Ok...let me start with the house.I am staying in a shop house which is at the 3rd floor.I guess i written this in previous post before but it's ok...I had just repeated it!heheh!Then,I'm staying with my 3 other friends who are also my classmates in uni.So far so good no problems.2 indians,1 chinese and me myself.The house is alright.A mini apartment I should say because it's not that smal or big.Just nice for ppl like us.
Then,Abah let me bring my car but because the school that i go for prac has limited spaces for parkings,I car pools with Wendy,another teacher trainee who goes to the same school as i am.She is my classmates in uni too only that she doesn't stay with us.So my car seldom runs around.Today,I drove to Shah Alam alone.Not bad at all!I didn't lost my way.Syukur!Ok tht's another story.
So,everything in that school are fine excepts some minor ones which i'm not gonna mention it here.If you want to know it just ask me ok...that is if you know and can meet me...hahhaha..other wise msn me or ym me...if you still can't get tru me..then,no need of it cos i don't think i know u...hahhahaha....
To be frank,I am feeling my self-esteem is decreasing but i know this is temporary.I have the strong feeling that it's going to be fine.When i feel that sort of feeling,i always know that nothing bad it's going to happen but instead this is only a test for me in life.A test i need to go through so that i can bare problems in future.
Going back Kuantan is going to be the last topic this 2 months i guess.I don't think i can go back often or even never for this couple of months.Too busy but i hope i will hv time to go back ..Hopefully!Argh!so much stuff to do!
Reena!!!Again ur whinning!Don't whine!!!
ok2!!
I think i better stop here.If you have any questions about my practical.Please ask me in the chat box k..i'll reply you as soon as possible!I think i can only upate my blog once a week.huhu...
O yea!just now after a PTA meeting or PIBG meeting if it's in malay;I thought of going somewhere b4 coming to Shah Alam.I thought of going to Ajoe's hse but Ajoe was not home ,he went out with his friends and he couldn't guide me because his hp batt is running low. Emak said i don't know the way and i might get lost.Yea!i know she's worried if anything happens to me.I understand.So ,I've cancelled the plan.Too bad huh?
HIs mom called asking that i can come even if Ajoe is not around and telling me that my 1st bro was heading to her hse too with my sis in law and children.I was like...haaa?!!!hmm..xpe la..
I was on the route to Shah Alam already when Ajoe's mom called and told me that..I said,'Xpe la auntie,maybe next time'...Sigh!
Well,i gtg...hv to wake up early and go to my cousins hse with my uncle and auntie.Then ,buy some stuff for monday's class.Some teaching aids.huhu..
Still can't believe that i'm a teacher.I teach!?pftt!Go figure!I still can't believe that students greet me when they pass by me and i sat at the teachers' place in the canteen and sitting in the staff room.I feel so odd!!Really!Weird like!
I feel like it's crime now to go out and watch movie at night because i am a teacher~is that normal?This is so weird!hahahhaha...
Ok this is going to be the 3rd time i say i gtg...so now..bubye...much love and zzZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzz!!~~
Then,Abah let me bring my car but because the school that i go for prac has limited spaces for parkings,I car pools with Wendy,another teacher trainee who goes to the same school as i am.She is my classmates in uni too only that she doesn't stay with us.So my car seldom runs around.Today,I drove to Shah Alam alone.Not bad at all!I didn't lost my way.Syukur!Ok tht's another story.
So,everything in that school are fine excepts some minor ones which i'm not gonna mention it here.If you want to know it just ask me ok...that is if you know and can meet me...hahhaha..other wise msn me or ym me...if you still can't get tru me..then,no need of it cos i don't think i know u...hahhahaha....
To be frank,I am feeling my self-esteem is decreasing but i know this is temporary.I have the strong feeling that it's going to be fine.When i feel that sort of feeling,i always know that nothing bad it's going to happen but instead this is only a test for me in life.A test i need to go through so that i can bare problems in future.
Going back Kuantan is going to be the last topic this 2 months i guess.I don't think i can go back often or even never for this couple of months.Too busy but i hope i will hv time to go back ..Hopefully!Argh!so much stuff to do!
Reena!!!Again ur whinning!Don't whine!!!
ok2!!
I think i better stop here.If you have any questions about my practical.Please ask me in the chat box k..i'll reply you as soon as possible!I think i can only upate my blog once a week.huhu...
O yea!just now after a PTA meeting or PIBG meeting if it's in malay;I thought of going somewhere b4 coming to Shah Alam.I thought of going to Ajoe's hse but Ajoe was not home ,he went out with his friends and he couldn't guide me because his hp batt is running low. Emak said i don't know the way and i might get lost.Yea!i know she's worried if anything happens to me.I understand.So ,I've cancelled the plan.Too bad huh?
HIs mom called asking that i can come even if Ajoe is not around and telling me that my 1st bro was heading to her hse too with my sis in law and children.I was like...haaa?!!!hmm..xpe la..
I was on the route to Shah Alam already when Ajoe's mom called and told me that..I said,'Xpe la auntie,maybe next time'...Sigh!
Well,i gtg...hv to wake up early and go to my cousins hse with my uncle and auntie.Then ,buy some stuff for monday's class.Some teaching aids.huhu..
Still can't believe that i'm a teacher.I teach!?pftt!Go figure!I still can't believe that students greet me when they pass by me and i sat at the teachers' place in the canteen and sitting in the staff room.I feel so odd!!Really!Weird like!
I feel like it's crime now to go out and watch movie at night because i am a teacher~is that normal?This is so weird!hahahhaha...
Ok this is going to be the 3rd time i say i gtg...so now..bubye...much love and zzZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzz!!~~
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