2.32am~17th sept

i am feeling sad..maybe just nw during mr choo afternoon class..one of my classmates said "b'pijak di bumi yg nyata" to me..i felt abit sad with wat sh esaid to me...i dunno mybe i'm gonna have my period soon or something coz i feel so sad n feel lyk no one apreciate me..i'm so emotional rite nw..sigh!

she said dat to me bcoz b4 she turnd n told elia 'hi elia comel'..then i said 'kat elia je ckp kt sy xckp,thn she said dat phrase the one i mentiond above..i'm abit sad,am my dat small dat she can say dat to me??i knw dat i am overreacting but thn..sigh!!i just cn't 4get wat she said..

i knw i hv my own beauty but thn wat she said really cut me deep..sigh!i shudn't b crying nw..i knw i'm just wasting my tears 4 someone hu has no idea of wat i am capable of doing..

i knw dat..but i cn't help it frm crying..pls..give me the strength to overcome my low self -esteem Ya Rasullullah...i am nothing without u...pls help me..i need the strength to go along with my everyday life here..so much preassure and so much problems...

i learnt dat i am here bcoz i need to b independent but i also knw dat if i dun ask 4 ur help i am considered as selfish and an arrogant person...

i feel lyk i am much better nw dat i let this sadness out of my chest..i just need to tell someone..in my it is u..haha..Syukur Ya Rasullullah...

i am going to rawang tomrw..go karaoke wit sarah,husna,elsa an mybe farrah..told mak ady but she as usual always thinks of the consequences later b4 things happen..i knw i shud listen to her but i'm not doing anything wrong..i'm just going to break fast n go karaoke..i'm excited because i wanna sing songs n let my tension out..dats my intention of going dats all..i dun hv to tell so much coz u knw how i feel and think..haha..i almost 4got bout dat..haha..nw i just hv to be strong n don't simply look down on myself for it is a really bad thing to do to myself..really4 bad..

i KNw I cAN do it,i am aWiNner!!

Syukur Ya Rasullullah...(^__^)