the need to pour out

it's been a few days since my last post..

i've been a lil' busy with assgmnts ,presentations and theatre practice....it's been a very tiring week...

sigh!

i know there is no need of sighs but i really need to take a deep breathe and feel my chest for a second.haa~i feel much better now....

if anyone who 's from fb and reading this ,would wonder y is my shout out as it is currently.Well,it's because 1 of my group member just won't listen in what i asked to do.Well,i act as the leader of the group and coordinate everything tht should be done and what should not.

So,that person argued with me .OK to cut it short (as if!haha)..at 1st i assigned the job to the group members without having to know that this one person's part was alot.So,at a so called last minute (i said so called because it was supposed to be presented yesterday but the lect said there's not class today,so now we hv to present the work on either 30th or 31st,so get it?haha..u don't?nvm..just follow the story.) i asked her to add some more info because most of what she gave me previously was wrong.It's not even close to the word 'easy' to edit her work if the work that ppl give you is all wrong.There was another girl in my group that did all wrong but she didn't argue and she was ok because i showed her that she was wrong and she agreed.BUT this person that argued with me was really testing my patience.

I know i did asked her to find info for 2 times and i asked her to changed the info for the 3rd time and that was only because her info was all wrong .

Then ,i said we'll discuss in class but she nvr showed up.Then ,in the afternoon she showed up and didn't even bother to come and ask me what the hell was going on.I had to go to her and explain everything but she was like so dumb(sorry for my words..).Why do i say so?It's because she was playing dumb and sort of refusing to understand what i was trying to convey to her.In the end,she did understand after questioning me with a whole load of questions.

I was like OMG!!!pls understand la.I did alot for you ady y u can't appreciate my work is it?I was raising my voice because at that moment we were at the lecture theatre whic was huge and full of ppl.Some ppl around us was looking i think but i didn't bother bciz i was busy explaining to that girl.damn!

i tot affter i explain she would be ok but after that she msgd me and said i shouln't hv yelled at her and all.YElled???

i didn't yell.I raised my voice because the room was noisy and she just can't seem to understand what i was saying.If you had the decency to come to me where there was less pll seating then you won't be that embarrassed,would you?Naseb la..kau yg malu bkn aku..

BUT ,i did apologised to her (because i 'yelled') to get her anger off.If a person is angry and we put more heat on it,the prob won't be solved .So ,i back off.I was being the water to put out the fire.I know i apologised but not from the heart but i did that to calm her down and make her feel much better like sdpkan ati la..huhuhu..

Seriously, i can't really apologise and make it from heart because she msgd me while in the class and i was concentrating on it.She can't expect me to be all worrying about i 'yelled' at her..

Well, i think now we're ok because she did her part and gave me just this evening.So,now let's just hope the presentation goes well.

BUT..i don't want to be in a group with her anymore .Thank you but no thank you.

OK..enough of her and focus on me.hehe...

I went to TESL night 2009,it was just last saturday.i'll make another topic for that.