Have You Ever?

Hey,have you ever feel that somehow you can't depend on your friends?Lately, I have this feeling or maybe these thoughts that in someway or some how i find it very difficult for me to make decisions.It's because they are my friends and i hate that sort of feelings.Sigh!

I have plans and i want to do it with my friends.I was thinking of starting it in KL instead of doing it in Ktn first.Well,sometimes not everything we want is what our friends want.I have to make a decision soon either to do it with them or alone with others (the outsiders).I wish sometimes people would see what i'm trying to achieve here.

It's not that i don't want to start in my so called hometown.It's just that i'm looking at the market here.I just don't know whether it will really2 work here.So,if i strt in KL first i'll have back up if anything goes wrong financially in KTN.

Well,they have their own priorities.I guess their life now is worth while.I guess it's enough for them this way.It's great to be near HIM.I totally agree with that but i just think...


I don't know what i'm thinking.What the hell!!It's my dream not my friends' dream.I asked them to join me in everything that i might come through either in hardships or happy times but if they refuse...I can't force them because this is mine.I can' t go forcing people to do what i think is right if they don't believe in what i believe in doing,right?Yea,i'll leave this to them to decide either to follow me or not soon in the future.Follow my plans or not it's their choice.

Well,for the time being the percentage of they not following me is almost to 99.99%.So ,i doubt it will happen anyways.It is sad when your own friend refuse to join you when you think they might be the key to what you plan to do.I know the key to life is always pray and ask from GOD but friends is one of the source (through them) GOD sends his help to us.

If i go alone later.It is a sad thing to do.Almost disappointing thing to do.*sigh!*