current feeling~mad,sad and so much more...

IN life there will always problems or some sort of a lame thing will happen in your life but tonight i just found out tht i can do tht thing i wanna do but my parents told me tht i can't.I am so angry.I admit that i dont always rmmbr HIM and tht HE told my parents not to come until further notice.So i stand wit tht order.I will nvr go againts tht rule if it is stated from HIM.Tonight only i knew tht i cud come maybe once a week to meet HIM.I feel so angry and frustrated.I am so freaking pissed off and sad simultaneously.My blood rushed through my vessels and my tears started to run down my cheeks as i could not hold it in.I cry of the anger within me.I was told not to do but in end i could do it if i wanted.I feel like cursing the hell out of this house right this fucking moment!!!!!

Shit!!Fuck!

I can positively say tht i am not afraid of anything but HIM!So with HIM by my side i hv no knowlegde of fear in my mind.So what if they will stop me and ask me questions??I have HIM.I know tht i am weak and i may not answer them but thn everything happens for a reason.I WAS TOLD NOT TO COME for about 2 weeks now!wasted the nights here in this freaking home doing nothing and i feel so.....argh!!!!!!Forgive me GOD!I am so sorry i hv said these words.I can't scold my parents as they too just knew about it.I am angry..i think i am angry because i followed my parents.I didn't think for myself.*sigh*I am angry to myself .I understand now tht this is something made for me as test in my life.I must take this as calm as i could.

i needed to pour this anger out as soon as i cud.I hope this will end as soon as possible!I will come and meet you very soon enough!Syukur for the great news!Syukur!I will nvr stop believe in you dear GOD!