Sunday, 23 August 2009

disappointed or purely sad?i'm indifferent..

I feel sad i guess for D's attitude towards me.He strted to ignore me now.I hv no idea why....I hate ppl who ignores me.Well,i nvr tot he would act like tht which makes me feel so disappointed towards him.I expected more then this i guess.

Did i said something tht made him change?Is he too busy to even reply my msg in ym n fb chatbox?Sigh!

I want to get this thing outta my mind n forget about 'this'....BUT deep inside my heart ,it's like asking me to not let 'this' go...shish!This is when 'i hate waiting' comes in handy..heh!

I know that i'm sad but i still make jokes out of the most serious things that happens to me.Well,i don't really like to hold any grudge,anger and sadness upon ppl.Thus,making jokes enlightens the burden on my shoulders sometimes.(It didn't work this time tho')

This silent treatment happens to me now,imagine what will happen if i confessed to him about my feelings?(k.lina,if ur reading this...yes,i do hv feelings towards him but i'm afraid to confess but thn again don't worry..i don't think our relationship ever gonna happen or even last if it does....haih!)

It's rather *sigh*....lame i guess.I hv so much to say but it's like it's all crumbled up n too thick to come out through words.

As i type this i wrote 'sedih ngn sikap seseorg' at my fb status..hehehe..n 4 ppl responded to it...hahah....it's good tho' cos they sorta cheered me up...huhuhu...

well,maybe it's not a thing to be!Gotta move on with life.I'll may take a lil' time to cure from this 'disease' but thn again it's waste of time even if i wait.

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Anyway,rmmbr from my last post i said about my roomate wanted to hv her 'bf' to stay in our room til the sem ends??Well,,guess wat??She broke up wit that 'pengkid'!!!!!I was hillariously happy when she told me but i was jumping for joy in the heart of cos!!i can't be going laughing with joy cos she just broke up (to her the break feels like a break up wit a real boy ).So,i had to pretend tht i'm sad for her.I know that it's not a good thing to act like tht but thn again i dont fancy it from the beginning.(the 'pengkid' staying in our room and all!)

1 problem solved!!Syukur!(In GOD i trust~)

Another prob wit her is that she always comes into the room wit a fren wit her.I don't like tht as well.I like my privacy to the room.I don't need anyone to be there to sibuk2 wit me in the room.I hv been out the whole day wit class n i expect to hv my time alone in the room without anyone else to be there .I've been patience this few days when i'm there in uni but thn yesterday i came here to my aunt's house in Shh Alm without telling my roomate cos whn i left the room for a morning class and she was asleep(cos she came bck around 5-6am tht morning so i didn't wake her up).So,she msgd me yesterday nite asking me where i am n wishing me on fasting.I replied and to cut it short i asked her to limit her frens from coming into the room.She said,'ok bos!'

She said tht in the msg but I don't know her real reactions towards my msg in the hp.iI hope all will turn out well whn i go bck to uni tmrw...Well,it's ok..TRust in GOD!Everything will be fine~

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Yea~i hope my net gonna be ok too in uni cos lately the net sux big time at night.I do most of my work at night.During the day is class n rest time for me, most of it~

Asgmnts are starting real soon now!!1st week pn ade kj da!ORg len relax2 lagi...Right now i'm supposed to finish some work but i don't feel like doing it cos it's weekend.I wana play around on weekends.heheh...Nvm la..tmrw i'll continue wit the homework tht the lects gave me.

My left foot hurts due to standing for too long when i was from uni to shh alam yesterday.I stood up in the bus for 1 hour n also stood up without sitting down in the train for 40 minutes whn i was from kl central to shh alam...Tht's y it hurts!

Tmrw i hv to fast n walk to pudu..i mean after i take the LRT from Kl central to MAsjid Jamek of cos...pergh!

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i better get some sleep.I gotta wake up at 5am to eat b4 i fast for the day.WEe~(^__^)

Wish me luck to forget him as tht is y i came here tonight to blog about...

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