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Today was hectic .I had 2 group presentations .I have to tell u that having great group members sometimes can make you become lazy.Wana know y?

Okay,firstly i have admit that all of my group members are great.Most of them are perfectionist and i respect that.Well,they tend to take all the work and that makes me feel guilty most of the time.I like doing work with ppl who actually do it.They often take the whole work load and will only sometimes divide the work.Don't get me wrong.I'm not complaining on anything but i just feel guilty of not doing much and contribute as part of the group.Well,i understand that they want all asgmnts to be good and appropriate but that turned me into a very lazy person day by day .It's because i don't hv much work to do and i lack the knowledge in doing those asgmnts.Sometimes i worry,if i will face any probs in doing that type of lesson plan in future later.Sigh!I hope not!

Just this afternoon ,i was supposed to handle a presentation but it didn't go as smooth as i thought but i did find most of the info in that presentation .What happened was...They edited the work and also presented it.I wish i did presented and showed that i could but they (my group mmbers) did better and i'm happy on their behalf because they sort of do it for me and other members that weren't ready at that moment for the presentation.I felt so useless.I was so used to be the leader of a group but when i entered this group ,i tend to follow more then lead.Maybe there are pros and cons to it.Well,everything have pros and cons to it.What doesn't ,right?huhu...

What i'm trying to say here is that I just won't hv enough thank yous to thank them later.They are like...almost want to do everything and i hv always asked if they are ok ,if i could do anything to help..but the reply is always that they are ok and they can manage.I feel so challenged and useless.I feel as if i am not trusted in doing any work.

Don't get me wrong.I just hate not doing any work.People would say tht it's better to let your group members do all the work if they don't want to divide the work because you can sit and relax but not to me.In my perception,sitting and doing nothing means you're a fool because you won't learn anything if you don't practice the work or asmngts assigned to you.You see?!I learn better when i do the hands on!

In this situation ,i hv to ask more because i'm not doing the work so i hv to ask the ones who did the asmngts in my group.I'm sorry if you think i'm talking about u .I'm not mad of you.I just feel guilty.Sorry if i can't do much in the group.Don't leave me out from the work.EVer ,ok!

THANKS ALOT!I APPRECIATE IT ALOT!(^___^)

*This post is specially dedicated to my 3 main groupmates for TESL 7A/2009/2010!