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MOod:OKay!not that sad i pressume...

I don't want to hold grudge onto anyone and i think i have forgiven them BUT i don't think i can forget what they did in this short term of period.What they did to my Abah, Emak ,my brother (the grudge they hold against him) and me.

I talked told D about this and he asked me to just give in.He said my 2nd bro (so much for a bro huh?) is stuck between marriage life n his own real family.He will always be on his wife's side because he is married.Sigh!

I just hope i won't be like them if and when i get married soon.I DON'T WANT TO GO AGAINST MY OWN BLOOD AND IF MY HUSBAND TEND TO CRITIC MY FAMILY I WILL ASK Y SO AND TALK IT OUT RATIONALLY WITH MY MOM IF IT IS HER FAULT BUT IF IT'S MY HUSBAND'S FAULT THN I'LL TALK SMOOTHLY WITH HIM.

Then again, i know it's easier to tell then do it ,right?I think i can with GOD's will,I know i can.GOD has given us the brains and the way to think rationally unlike wat that 'ungrateful person ' did.

I may not talk to him or his so called family for quite some time tho'.Well,it depends.Things between me and him will never be the same again.Meaning if he strts to come to my house again,i won't be entertaining their shits again.If i met them in the house,salam pastu msk bilik ~

If i ever pass by them in a shopping mall or something.probably i'll just ignore..hahhaha....

Hey,he told me not to 'masuk cmpur with his 'thing' with my third bro...' and so i won't .

I'll do the same as what i did to MAs until they feel like they want to die feeling sorry for what they have done.Well,if they do have feelings in their so called heart!hahahhah...

U might ask what i'll do to make them feel sorry right?I won't do anything.I'll just practice silent treatment.Just be myself but the diff is that i am very quiet when they are around of cos.

FOr instance,you make joke i smile.U want to strt talking i'll walk away.hahahha....

Besides,it's not i who BAGI MAKAN ANAK DIA right?Well,come to think of it he has no right to yell or scold me on the phone the other day too because he too XBAGI MAKAN but instead my ABAH DID u 'ungrateful person'!!(meaning he doesn't feed me so he has no right to yell at me,that's what he scolded me,i have no right to scold or taouch his sons because i'm not the one who feeds them but it's vice versa.Who is he to scold me til i wasted my tears for him??He didn't feed me..hahhaha...)

I'm just mad for what he has said and done.I don't want to keep it in myself ,what i feel now i typed it out here so that i won't feel the pain.I want to let it out.Holding grudges make your heart turns black and it spoils yourself.I wonder how this 'ungrateful person' and his so called family can live with years of grudges in them.I want to feel sorry for them BUt i can't.As i've told you,I was taught not to feel sorry for any man,it's his fate!