chnges!

I can feel that changes are taking it's path way through me.The day b4 i went out with Mas n Izan for the first time since Dec 2008.It has almost been a year.I'm still putting in the distance as i don't want to get my feelings hurt again.Call me selfish but i just can't take the pain again.I'm just glad tht we're good again.

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It's December and my best friend can't afford to go for a trip to Genting.I wanted to go for so long and nvr get the chance.I know you'll be reading this..sooner or later dear friend .I need you to re-read the msg i replied to you ..the one we were talking about the trip in FB inbox.Actually,I meant it the other way.I was saying tht in a sarcastic way.Maybe it's holidays and I had a very tough semester just recently.I just wanted to go somewhere and really do something for this so called 4-5 weeks of holidays with u.

I guess it will nvr happen,thought of it for so long and it's never gonna happen.

I'm sorry.I know i'm being selfish!I know you hv your priorities and i must and should understand tht.It's just tht I wanted to go there for so long tht i feel so...sad!sigh!

I feel like crying over this small matter.Great!I am such a softie!!!O..how i wish i'm working right now!

*(wiping the tears of the face)*

Maybe i wanted it so much that i feel so depressed not having the chance to go.Xpe la..nnti ade la tu...don't cry!~(calming down)

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Get a grip on yourself,Reena!!It's just a place.It's not going anywhere!Maybe the chance of going there will come later.*sigh*

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Anyways,i changed the background for my blog..hehe...isn't it cute?Penguins from Madagascar cartoon.At least i'll get abit cheered up everytime i come into my blog.Usually i get all emo-ed when i re-read this blog..haha..well,sorta...

You know what?Sometimes i keep on thinking to make this blog private.As in really private, meaning only me can read it.It's just mostly on my feelings actually, so there's nothing really important that you guys should pay much attention on right?Cause i can feel tht there's no privacy-sure ppl would say,''It's not called blogs for no apparent reason,ppl read your blog to know stuff''...

That is also right but i just think that i spilled too much stuff thn i should so i'm thinking to make it really 'private'...

Well, i'll put a thought to that.

Give me comments as well..should i put it into private mode?