i don't know what to say!It hurts!

I think i'm overexaggerating about this but i just hate it when ppl ignores me!I just don't understand what is D thinking in his mind.

It started with a simple chat and if you are not in the mood can't you just tell me about it?Can't you say something and not ignore me?I feel so stupid sometimes.I feel like i'm pathetic because everytime you ignore me, i just put the embarrassment behind me (tebalkn muka) just to say hi to you even after you hv ignored me for so many times.TO THE FACT THAT I like you.....pls!
Don't do this to me..I'm trying so hard to make you like me.If you don't want this to happen thn tell me that you don't want it to happen.Don't ignore me and think that it will go away!The fact that i like you won't change unless you tell me that you don't like me liking you.

I 'm not asking you for a relationship yet.I loved too but i know your situation and i don't want to push you but can't we talk like ordinary ppl.Why ignore?You want to push me away?IS that it?

You don't hv to do that.I know it will hurt me but it's better for you to tell me if you think we are not going anywhere with this.It's better to tell me thn making me wait and hope for you.

I get hurt when i miss you.I get hurt when you ignore me.I get hurt when you turn your back on me.

I don't get hurt if you talk rough at me because i know it's how you say things.I won't get hurt if you say it out if you care.I like it because from there i know you care.

*SIGH*

I just don't know what to say.Disappointment after disappointment i continue to like you.It's hard and tiring but ....*speechless*

Should i put a stop to this?I feel like i'm fooling myself.I think of him so much this time around.Emak told me that if it's to hard on you thn let it go!Don't torture yourself.You still have things to achieve and maybe it's not the right time for you yet.

I think what Emak said to me is right too.It's hard to tell whether D really likes me or not.

I think i'm just a friend to him and not more thn that.I shouldn't put anything on it.I must not think this will go anywhere.

Well,it's just what i assume~still in dilemma!I need someone to talk too!I need to cry and let this out!It hurts!I don't like this!

*sad*...I think i am exaggerrating!WEll,who cares right?No one cares....