What is there to update?My life is so stuck onto my practical and term paper! Well, it's going to be a 'was' soon! I'm gonna look back soon and say i have gone through all that and i 'was' stuck to my practical work and the term paper!!heheh!Minus the weekends there are only 7 days left for my practical days. I'm sure everyone in my class and batch are looking forward on the same thing as I am. I am so looking forward for my convocation day!WOw!!The end of degree and into working life!It's a bit scary for me though because i don't know where i'll end up to work in and how much will i earn? This thing keeps on replaying in my mind. Family and also future seconds my thoughts.
Well, anyway i have done my term paper. Just waiting for it to hard covered. I asked my Abah to send it in Kuantan cos i don't know any place in Kl so this Monday i'll submit it to my lect.Hopefully, it will be alright! About my observation marks..hmmm...i just cross my fingers to get a B+ for overall. I really don't feel like targeting for an A.Since i've taken up B.ed TESL, i rarely achieved A for my teaching subject/courses. So i don't expect high for my observations during my practical. A B+ for overall is fine by me!=)
What ever happened since 25th May (the last time i wrote in this blog) was purely all work and seldom that i went out and have fun. I went out a couple of times with K.Lina and tried to go out with D but mostly all plans were failures. So cut it short, my days were like a traveler's style of living. I go home to Ktn then to KL (come back and forth ) just to get my term paper finished during the school holidays (4th JUne-20June). Next, those 2 weeks were all work and no play. My playing time was when i go online to FB and that was it. One night, I stood up to 13 hours just to make sure my term paper was all in order and done. Afterwards, back to school continue with prac.
Other than that, i just realised that i am a softie with my students. I had only managed to see that after my 2nd observation with my uni lect. Maybe i was immuned with the noise that the students produced that i don't seem to care what they talked about as long as they do my work.Hmmm!!I think i really gotta work on that problem. I guess it's my fault, i did not always reminded them on the rules that i told them when i first met them.
CAn't say much when we are in prac cos they give us marks so we practically have to shut our mouths and just swallow what ever was given to us. We were basically independent, not much of guidance were given to us. We were on our own! Well, i have GOD,why fret right?huhu...=)
I told students that i'm leaving next week. Some said,'yay!!'...Some was sad. SOme made a frown and some just cried. Some kept quiet and some just don't know how to respond to my statement. Maybe it's good that way, it won't make me feel as though there is a big rock in my heart and hard to leave them this coming 9th of July. I guess i am gonna miss them. Weird as it may seem or hear this ,i think i will.
I saw 1 video just now in you-tube. It was for teachers' day but it was meaningful because the situation was similar for me and wendy's in SMKIH. I cried watching it and it really reflected us in school. I don't know if i would come back to that school but i know 1 thing i will miss that school. No matter how bad it is. It has taught me the values of people between each other, students' character, the hardship of all challenges encountered and how to handle the students with problem and so much more. I know I don't think am fit to be a teacher. The burden is heavy and i salute teachers who are taking up this profession. I would choose to settle down in the tertiary level where students really come to study but SMKIH will always be the treasure that i will keep for the rest of my life. The treasure which has taught me alot to be matured.
The final 7 days in SMKIH!
*You've tried you're best ROZLINA and you've encountered the challenge!* (^__^)Y
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