I was angry.

I must admit I was angry with faith that I'm living in right now after i heard the news. What news you might ask? It's about Abah's job. In my previous post, I told you that Abah got a job right?Well, he did but....Aaahh! I don't wana talk about it.

It's like I got all emo and all after hearing the news. Anger, sadness, disappointments and all those worrying made me so freaking worked up. I couldn't cry at first but as i lay on my bed, tears came out like non-stop. I was angry at my faith and I was angry to GOD. I know I have sinned for doing that but I was just so angry and sad. Melodramatic and neurotic, I must say~!

Sigh! I pray for your forgiveness dear GOD! I shouldn't have let those feelings encountered me until fury took place upon me. I'm dreadly sorry. I really am. I thought of many things when i was furious. Things to let me out of this thing that is call my destiny. Things that are so bad and it's an easy out but it's so dark. You wouldn't want me to elaborate on. Just leave it as that. No use for me to make a paragraph out of it.

Dear GOD, what ever it is that you may have for me in the future, I bow down to you and ask you to give me the strength, patience, ability and everything that is enough for me to charge in this bumpy adventure lying upon me now and in future. Syukur~!

I'm very sorry that I was whining alot.