drifting apart. . .

Lately, everything did not turn out as what I have expected. Day by day I realised that i am becoming someone else. I tend to be more difficult for people to understand. I don't blame them. I have to stop being so honest and sometimes lay back and bluff a little. That way, i can make people feel abit more happy perhaps with what ever they have done.

Friends drifting apart. As the saying goes, "Friends do come and go but only the ones who never left matters the most". . . .I wonder if there will ever be a friend that will stand by me forever.

Things get complicated every step of my life. I am grateful for GOD has given me the lesson to stand strong to face the future. At the same time, I admit I had neglected some people and some things in my life. Everyone have problems, no matter how much hardship they face or no matter how they are challenged; it's not the things they go through that is important but the journey they experienced and how they overcome them during the challenges are most valuable.

I'm tired to talk my heart out to people who just don't want to be transparent with me and are afraid to be as honest as me. I might get hurt when honesty comes into my face, trust me i will face it with great bravery that GOD has lend to me but when you just refuse to be transparent with me for the 2nd time. . .I just draw the line. I'm tired of pouring my feelings out to the person who just would like to keep their feelings to themselves. I also respect their decision of doing so , they have their reasons. For now, I'll lay low. I'm sorry for being such a self-centred person but i need someone to tell me when i'm wrong and not just show your emotions and simply scold me. I'll just do nothing for now.

To sum everything up. I just want to be a happy person. I want to be friends with everyone Iknow and be cool most of the time. No problems needed, please! I need moral support, so who ever loves me please tell me that I'll be okay and pat my shoulder for the signal of your love if you can't hug me.

I put aside all of my egos and ask for your kind blessings dear GOD for I am no one in this face of earth. Please put myself at ease and not think too much of things that could resolve easily with your help dear GOD. Love, hugs and kisses.