Accept the fact.

Sometimes or most of the time, it's hard to accept some facts especially when it regards to yourself. It's either about you, your problem, your family etc. In my case, my problems are the fact that I have the difficulty in accepting them. I had numerous times ventured the road of my problems and some how overcame them but they kept letting me into the first door that I left. Simply put, I'm always back to square one which is always making me do the deep heavy sighs to relieve myself.

It has been a very rough two years now since I've moved into this beige house. I have to agree that there are ups and downs but I also believe that there are more downs then ups. I'm sorry dear GOD but I just feel so down when I'm all okay and stuff with my stress level but then someone had to brag about the things that she used to have and now she's left with nothing and stuff. These things bring me down. It's as though I'm not trying my most hardest to get things right to what they used to be like. I'm tired. I'm tired of putting my head up and acting as if I'm very strong, that I could handle all this pressure. Deep down. . .I'm so weak dear GOD.

I know I have nothing to worry but sometimes, this adventure I'm in seriously is holding me back. From what you might ask? Holding me back from myself to be precise. I'm not me. Experience in life changes people they say. . .Yes!I have to agree but I don't want it to change me totally. I used to all fun but now I think fun is now only 30% of me in my life.

I pray to you dear GOD that I will face this adventure with full strength and bravery that is given by you and I trust that I will hold triumph and also run towards the victory no matter how hard this journey will be soon in future.

Syukur Ya Rasullullah! I trust that all that happens, it happens for a reason.