First quarrel thru phone call.

D and I quarreled through the phone for the first time. It was just a small itsy-bitsy problem. When I came to think of it again,it was a very tiny matter. He shouted at me for the first time and I shouted at him in anger for the first time too. When I got back home yesterday night I was so sad and I felt so unappreciated. I couldn't care less I just went to sleep. Lucky for me I was exhausted. (i just got back from visiting my grandfather in Senawang, Seremban). I put my head and I went to sleep straight away. I felt too dejected last night.

This morning I woke up feeling uneasy. When I felt that way, I knew that I've done something wrong because I felt this enormous amount of weight hanging in my chest and my heart hurts so badly. When this happens, I absolutely had done something wrong. I instantly recap of what has happened last night.

. . .and I started to ask myself these questions. Perhaps the line was the problem when D called me and it wasn't clear of what he was telling me? Maybe it really was just a misunderstanding? Could it be that his words of  'kau lepak je lah sane' was just him being sarcastic? He must have been angry at me when he said those words and thought that I wanted to go to another place instead of the place he told me to go to. Did he knew that I didn't know that he actually wanted me to go there (the place where he was really at)?

I felt guilty instantly because I shouted at him and he was scolding me through the phone in front of everyone. I bet he was ashamed as well. Sigh! I know sorry is the last resort now but I would try either ways to get us on good terms again.

I text him and wanted to meet up but he refused to meet. I could only apologised through few texts and he didn't reply much. I could tell that he was still mad at me. I knew that he couldn't talk to me yet because we sort of bumped into each other and within that few seconds standing there, I tried to say something but I didn't; hoping he would but none. I walked off and looked back several times but nothing as well. He was very mad at me.

In one of his reply to my text, he said he was a little offended but he said there was not a need to meet up for that and that I don't have to worry of anything.

All of the above are all about frustrations and I don't fancy all of it. It was not my intention of hurting his feelings. At the same time, I do understand that everything happens for a reason. Yesterday was full of twists from GOD and I know why HE did it. What ever has happened yesterday, I praise the Lord for the love and I cherish it so much. Thank you and syukur, Ya Rasullullah. <3

For D, I hope you live a happy live where ever and with who ever you choose to be with. Sincerely, from me. Cheers!