What I currently long for. . .

Family photo.
Family gathering.
Family dinner.
Family Eve Raya saying forgive-ness.
Family hang out.
Family holiday.
Family barbecue night.
Family discussions.
Family with me.

When I was young, I always thought of how lucky I was to have three brothers and that I'm the only daughter in the family. I felt that I'll be protected by my 3 brothers and I felt my brothers would also protect my parents when they grow old. Some things didn't go according to plan. Firmly, GOD knows best.

Hey! Call me an emo-freak or what ever but this is just what I want so badly nowadays. No wonder I felt so happy when I meet my immediate cousins from my fathers side or when I go and visit Ibu (my aunt from my mother's side). I feel like I belong. I feel so much care and love there. In a family, that kind of feeling is suppose to stay, forever.

I'm not asking for you to put pity on me. I just needed to express myself. I know GOD has HIS reasons for writing my story of life like this and I'm grateful HE did 'cos everything happens for a reason and I know all of it is for me to improve myself in life. Especially with my parents along side me. I just hope I'll be ready when they leave me soon. ='(

Emotionally Breakdown.