Unmotivated

It's hard when you really wanted to do something and you needed help to start but no one is there to believe in you, hence; join you to start that adventure. I thought I have my main close friend in believing in what I want to achieve. Sadly, I was wrong.

At this very moment, I don't know how many times tears kept running out of my eyes and dried out on my cheeks. I guess I had put high expectations on who I thought would believe in me. If you couldn't join me perhaps you could have motivated me.

The very least I could do now is to calm myself down. I have to understand that maybe they don't understand what I tried to convey on them, on the positive note; of course. I really wanted to talk to D and cry on the phone about this matter but what different would it make? I just wanted someone to comfort me and I'll sound so weak if I called D.

It's okay. I just need to let this off my chest. Never thought it'll be hard to swallow. I have to think positive and not give up. I will NEVER give up. NEVER!

Everything happens for a reason. I have to be strong! Amin. Syukur! :)