GLoomy

Currently, I'm feeling a bit gloomy due to my nephew, Adam. I don't want to talk about him actually because it would only make me feel worse. It's nothing really bad, his mom kicked him out of the house recently and asked to live with me and my parents. My brother, Adam's father is living with me so he lives with us now too. I don't have issues with them living with us but it becomes troublesome when Adam starts to sulk like a baby. He is 8 years old this year and if he sulks, he can sulk for hours; literally.

Okay, I've said I didn't want to talk about him but ended up I did. Sigh!

Well, I might as well finish it in short. So, earlier tonight he met his mom unintentionally at a 'place' and wanted to play with the gadget that his sister was playing with or perhaps utilising (which was initially his as what I was told). His mom left as soon as he came, perhaps it's her time to leave, either ways it made Adam felt very upset and threw a sulk session just now. I had to carry him out of the location because he refused to walk and started crying so loud it made me felt embarrassed. I closed his mouth with my hand but he cried louder. I do love him and I know I was harsh towards him but I believed (still do) that I did that to make him open up. Open up to talk instead of sulking and not know what he wanted. Sincerely, I hate it when he sulks; I would throw him out too if I would have been a cruel person but I am not. I empathise what he is feeling. He is mentally abused due to his parents; divorce. A victim. An innocent child. Spoilt.

I feel very sad. My heart feel so weak. Dear GOD, I am so sorry for being harsh towards Adam and I don't have any intention to hurt him. Sometimes, I feel like I'm useless. I can't do anything to comfort him when he feels sad but in the end when I reflect on this matter, it is a road that has been decided. May GOD give us strength to overcome this gift of a road. Anything and everything can be handled with faith, trust, will towards our Lord. :')

We don't know the future and never will but we have faith and hope towards GOD. We, my parents and I believe that everything will be alright. Adam will grow up to be a great person and become better. Honestly, I am a normal human being and I do have second thoughts too but to be a good person at heart and in your life, you need great experience to get you to the right place. Some people may treat their life experiences to a good course and for some, vice versa. That's what worries me most. Then again , like I have mentioned earlier, when you have faith in GOD, you should believe in him and not worry more. Just follow the flow and live to the fullest. Amin. Syukur, Ya Rasullullah. :)