I could let go some of the things i kept to myself when K.lina confront me for the second time. The first time she asked me but i said i wanted to keep to myself. Well, we solve the problem between us and I'm glad we did. I would tell everything here but it wouldn't be called as a 'secret', would it?HAHA.. The main point is that I am happy now, slightly more calm then before. I told all the problems and let go of what i shouldn't be keeping to myself. I feel like there is a bog rock on top of my shoulder, it's like I'm putting all the weight on myself alone. I was wrong and I needed someone. Besides GOD, it was K.lina. She was there when i needed her the most. Thank you, babe!
She said, 'I think we really were twins in the previous life. It's like incarnation or something because I can feel whenever things go wrong with you and vice versa too. It hurts when we don't speak to each other for too long.'
I agree on what she had told me.
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Work
. . . .is just the same. I'm tied to HSBC until 25th March 2011 which is not long from now. I don't even know what will happen after 25th March. I might and might not get confirmed but at least I'm not that worried because Abah got a job. YAY! If i didn't get any extension or get confirmed to the bank, I can still find other jobs but it may take time but when Abah is working soon with GOD's will I have time to find it without worrying much. Well, you know...MONEY! heheh~!
I've applied with UIA with some help of course. Hopefully, I get a place. *Kena yakin*
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D
Few weeks back, I finally knew why D was always holding back. I think he is tho'...but never mind that. . . Hmm...but before i tell you...should i tell the world about this? I think I better not.
Maybe this one I'll keep it to myself and the ones close to me. *grins* (^_^)Y
He made me worried few days back. Syukur that he's alright!=)
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Death
. . . the main topic for today is DEATH.
This morning (14/2/2011), K.lina woke me up with a call. She called me to tell about someone's death and I was freaking blur at that moment because I just woke up and was still on the bed (should i describe further??) and it was around 8am. It was Pak Cik Mat Kecik (my sister-in-law's father) and it was shocking because his death was really unexpected. He was admitted to the hospital due to the involvement in an accident but it never came to mind that it would be the last few weeks that we would ever see him. I was too shocked that I felt really regretful that i didn't go and see him when he was in the hospital. I have no excuse for it and I blame myself for my ignorance. My parents went when i was working and I should have went when i was free on weekends but everything were settled this morning and I am grateful that he is safe with GOD now.
It was a very peaceful morning. I saw butterflies flying around. It's either him or the Angels.
I'm not good with deaths, I'm sorry but everything went well. Syukur Ya Rasulullah~! ♥
Hopefully, we'll meet each other in Heaven's Garden.
These words above were the status in my FB just few hours ago. Seriously, I don't know how to speak to the people whose member of the family just passed. I just don't know what to say to them. Sometimes i just ignore them not intentionally but just to keep away from them so that i don't say the wrong words to them. I'm sorry, I really am a bummer when a memorial day like this comes. What ever it is, I'm grateful everything is done. Syukur!~ ♥
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The End.
Salam Maulidur Rasul. Syukur Ya Rasulullah. . . .
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